Do you have him pictured?
Okay, great. Now hold that thought for a second.
This boy you have in mind, the one who's messed with your mind and hurt your heart. The boy who's made you question your worth – even if it was for just a second; have you ever truly considered that maybe this boy does not see your value, because he is not meant to?
Do you ever allow yourself to think that just maybe, he is not worth your hurt or your questions?
I know that there was a time (not too long ago, might i add) that I let someone else's acceptance and rejection of me, affect the way I saw myself. Choosing to live that way, led me on the biggest emotional rollercoaster of life and truly made me value myself a little less.
This is so sad to me now because never for a moment then, did I really believe that this boy would never see what I wanted him to see in me, because he was not made for me. He was never meant for me, and I struggled to believe that. I struggled to believe that I was worth more than the boy who didn't want me back.
It's hard to imagine that there really was a time that my opinion of who I really was, depended on how I was treated by people who didn't really even know me.
All I know now, is that I will never again settle for the guy who plays games and maybe steals my attention, but could never truly steal my heart. I know what I want, I know what I deserve and you should too.
I always say this, and I will say it again: you deserve the love story of your dreams. You deserve intentional and honest pursuit. You deserve to be seen with the value that Jesus places in you and sees in you every. single. day.
You deserve more than the experiences you've had or the endless mind games you've been put through.
You deserve the man who puts his ego aside and silences his pride just so he can choose you.
Each and every time I encounter a boy who fails to meet my expectations, it only creates greater anticipation in my heart for what the right guy will actually be like.
So next time you want to question why he doesn't see your value or know your worth, recognize that he was never meant to. You know your value first, you know your worth first. Don't let someone tell you what you deserve. You know it first and never settle for anything less.
It IS worth choosing to wait for the one who pursues you with purpose. And as you wait, it is also worth knowing that you do not need this to be complete. You already are.
So next time,
before you question your worth, question why you even need to.
With love,
Princess
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