Why he doesn't see your value

You know that guy you've been pining after? The one who just won't notice you? The one who loves to play games and make you wait, or the one who texts you only when it's late..

Do you have him pictured?
Okay, great. Now hold that thought for a second.

This boy you have in mind, the one who's messed with your mind and hurt your heart. The boy who's made you question your worth – even if it was for just a second; have you ever truly considered that maybe this boy does not see your value, because he is not meant to?

Do you ever allow yourself to think that just maybe, he is not worth your hurt or your questions?
I know that there was a time (not too long ago, might i add) that I let someone else's acceptance and rejection of me, affect the way I saw myself. Choosing to live that way, led me on the biggest emotional rollercoaster of life and truly made me value myself a little less.

This is so sad to me now because never for a moment then, did I really believe that this boy would never see what I wanted him to see in me, because he was not made for me. He was never meant for me, and I struggled to believe that. I struggled to believe that I was worth more than the boy who didn't want me back.

It's hard to imagine that there really was a time that my opinion of who I really was, depended on how I was treated by people who didn't really even know me.

All I know now, is that I will never again settle for the guy who plays games and maybe steals my attention, but could never truly steal my heart. I know what I want, I know what I deserve and you should too.
I always say this, and I will say it again: you deserve the love story of your dreams. You deserve intentional and honest pursuit. You deserve to be seen with the value that Jesus places in you and sees in you every. single. day.
You deserve more than the experiences you've had or the endless mind games you've been put through.
You deserve the man who puts his ego aside and silences his pride just so he can choose you.

Each and every time I encounter a boy who fails to meet my expectations, it only creates greater anticipation in my heart for what the right guy will actually be like.

So next time you want to question why he doesn't see your value or know your worth, recognize that he was never meant to. You know your value first, you know your worth first. Don't let someone tell you what you deserve. You know it first and never settle for anything less.

It IS worth choosing to wait for the one who pursues you with purpose. And as you wait, it is also worth knowing that you do not need this to be complete. You already are.

So next time,
before you question your worth, question why you even need to.

With love,

Princess

be no lover

she'll always call you

friend

even if there are

oceans

of feelings

encapsulated within

her

she'll take no risk, she

promised herself this

and maybe if she

wishes long enough

the waves of warmth

at the sound of your

name will disappear

and maybe she won't

break if you call or if

you don't.

she'll play it safe,

she'll deny you as

lover

and reject you as

soulmate

she'll convince her

world that it isn't fate

and when she sees

you face-to-face

she'll force the seas in

her to still;

she'll use her power,

she'll beg her will

that before it ends,

please pretend

he'll be no lover

he'll just be friend

-p//

self-medicating

i don't know where to begin

i've been lost; self-medicating

choosing to run and hide

instead of dealing with the lies

the lies that yell "you're no good"

and "He doesn't see you",

or that "you'll always fail",

and "He'll never come through"

it's been just a moment

i've chosen to walk away,

but in the space of these few days

nothing in me has felt the same

it's like everything i do is out of character;

lacking direction,

its like using vision

with no true perception

these lies, they tell a different story

of how You sent me to this place,

then left without showing Your glory,

of how you told me "go"

then went and left me wandering

i refused to call out,

i refused to come home

they told me you wouldn't listen,

they told me i was alone

in fight or flight, I chose to flee because

i believed truth no longer wanted me,

no longer chased after me,

no longer even saw me

who knew self-medicating

could only lead you into deeper frustration?

for a while there, i mixed up truth with a certain lie

but now You give me vision to clearly see,

there's never been one moment

You've ever forgotten me

now there's no more fighting on my own

truth is You've always been here,

wanting that I'd want you alone

this truth that sought me,

waits here for you too;

you can search this world and truly find,

no temporary distraction could ever satisfy

You were made for Love

and it was made for you

it doesn't change is mind,
there's simply nothing you could do

The Minimalist Clothing Rack In 4 Steps

I just recently re-decorated my room and moved a couple things around and one of the first things I wanted to do was to change my clothing rack around just a bit. It's the very first thing I see when I walk into my room and so I wanted to make sure that it gave me all the positive vibes the moment I stepped inside my room.

I did a couple things to get it looking as minimalistic and uncluttered as possible.

1. I got rid of bulky unappealing clothing items on  my rack.

This is essential if you are going for that minimalist vibe. So I took every "ugly" piece of clothing I owned and shoved it far back in my closet.

2.  I colour graded. 

White is the perfect clean-cut, welcoming thing to walk home into, so I made sure to incorporate as MUCH white onto my rack as possible. I can guarantee you that if I could have, I would have simply made the entire rack all white but.. I don't have enough plain white clothing for that to work. I settled instead for colour grading, going from white to cream to greys and then to blacks. This will honestly change up your space so much and give your room a minimalist yet sophisticated vibe!

 
 3. The less shoes, the better

This rule is GOLD. before I re-did my clothing rack, I literally used to keep beneath it every shoe and it's brother. What I mean by that, is that I kept way too many shoes beneath my rack and even when my room was clean and tidy, it still made me uneasy and looked pretty rubbish. So I knew something needed to change. Now I only keep about 3 or 4 pairs of shoes on my rack, and I try as much as possible to keep the cutest ones on display! I mean, a clothing rack is more-so for the aesthetic than anything else, am I right?!

4.  Personalize.

I love the idea of making anything my own. So, when it comes to my clothing rack, I can't help but want to do the same. To personalize this area a little, I decided to fold all my light-wash denim into a pile on the bottom and I placed it diagonally rather than straight-on for some added personality. I also hung up on the wall behind the rack, some cute black hats of mine and to finish off the area, I kept an aesthetically pleasing brown shopping bag from my (new) favourite vintage store, Filthy Ribena.

This, ladies and gents, is how you can create a minimalistic clothing rack design for your room or any living area!

With Love,

Princess