You are leading others, whether you want to or not.

This title is something i've been grappling with a lot lately.
it's the idea that people are watching the testimony of my life and matching it with my actions.
it's a heavy weight to feel that whether or not i want to, i am leading people. and this is either leading them closer to Jesus or further away.
What is the story my life is telling?
is it of a good and faithful Father who sent his son to die for us?
is it of self-focus and self-satisfaction?
is my life just for me?

I want to be so cautious and intentional about the way that I am leading those around me,
those who i don't even know are watching.
My pastor has always said, if the only way people will know about God is through your life, what would they believe about Him?

I would encourage you that if this question scares you or makes you wonder how the life you're living is leading others, take a step back from living publicly. figure it out in private first, seek Jesus out in private first, decide how you get to lead in private first before you bring it out to the open.

I want my private life to look like ultimate surrender to Jesus, I want it took like trust in who He is, I want my private life to glorify Jesus. This is the only way that my public life will too.