Come Matter Here - Hannah Brencher
Before I left for vacation in California a few weeks ago, I found myself as they say– between a rock and a hard place. I thought going away would pull me out of the things I no longer wanted to see or feel, and give me all the clarity I needed. But the thing about clarity is that it requires us to see clearly. It is not an escape, it is a coming to terms with all the hard stuff, all the real stuff and facing them head-on. Before leaving, I remember asking my friend Maddie to give me a book that would be a slap -in-the-face kinda truth, and she gave me this–Come Matter Here.
it is real, honest and challenging. This book is self-described as an invitation to be "here" in a getting "there" world. It invites us to dig our roots deep in the places where our feet are planted, because
it is so much easier to dig-wide than it is to dig deep. it's so much easier to make newer, funnier and wittier friends, but so much harder to invite into the aching places of your heart, those friends and people you've known over a lifetime.
lately, the question on my mind and heart has been this: "does it matter?"
do i matter?
does my life mean anything at all?
does it matter if i buy that dress instead of those groceries, does it matter if i comment under his Instagram photo, does it matter if i watch that story or save up money or go on another vacation or lead a small group. does it matter?
the truth is, we are almost constantly waiting for that invitation from a new friend or new city that says "come matter here". We are waiting for that jolt of significance and we are willing to drop all the difficulties of our current lives at a moments breath, in search of the next best thing. I've been feeling this way lately. It's like I am constantly wanting my life, my gifting's, and my experiences to have meaning somewhere. to be needed somewhere, to be told by someone that "yes", my life matters" and "yes" it means something. and if they ever tell me no, i am just as willing to pack up and leave it all behind.
its a strange feeling, a vast medium to find ourselves.
the "do i matter's" and the 'will it mean a thing's'
are the questions i can only hope will be answered in time.
one thing I do know for sure, is that for this season, Come Matter Here has began my journey of clarity. I am starting to see clearly again, starting to face life head-on again, instead of packing up a suitcase to remain in life's high highs and escape it's low lows.
So if you find yourself stuck in this in-between, i would recommend "Come Matter Here".
i am only half-way through but i know this book is changing my life.
With Love,
Princess
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