i've never known the route those other girls take.
the one where they play games too, but keep their hearts steady
the path where they find comfort for one night only,
and wait for true love to come seek them out when it's ready
i've always been a little too eager,
never knowing when to silence the storm within me
always believing that maybe true love will forget
if i don't at first let it find me
so for a years as i grew,
i would put myself in its way
i would adorn myself in the brightest of clothing
so that missing me, would be like missing day
i wasn't a hard match to please,
i was easy to fight for
and then one day i awoke and saw
that this love i had been so searching for, had not
thought it time to yet open its door
it had an assignment, it had a sender
it couldn't just find me because my heart was tender
it knew i needed to wait,
to let life run its course
but i didn't know how to listen,
i thought i could take it by force
so with each new heartbreak and open wound,
i would yell up at the clouds,
"why can't he love me the way i do?"
but snow would fall and wind would come,
season would change, meeting me undone
if only i'd known that the one thing
required of me, was simply to sit still
and learn how to love me
true love had waited,
hoping i would finally believe,
that only i, needed to see the beauty in me
the love i had spent my life trying to find
would never be the one to change this frame of mind
if i didn't at first see in me,
what i would want that boy to find,
i would only repeat this vicious cycle of choosing the route
poorly designed
so now that i'm older
i no longer search love out
i am confident in knowing
it will never complete me inside out
i know my path,
i've learned to wait
i'll take it easy
this is the only right way
i know my path,
i've learned to wait
true love will find me
i now know how to love me
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