my defining years

 September 26 London, England.

I have so many dreams this year

and I often wonder,  am I making the most of it?

This is a once in a lifetime, 

this is a shooting star year.

so am i flying? soaring through endless possibilities with Him,

or am i hiding? fearing disappointment and heartbreak.

i want to one day look back and say,

in my twenties, in my year in England–

i chased big dreams,

i raced toward impossibility 

and i trusted Him with every ounce of my life.

so may these years take me by endless surprise 

may they undress new hope and etch into hidden places of my heart

how good–no, how wonderful, this life can be.

but more than anything,

may my twenties be the years that define,

my soaring into the unknown.

something about the unknown

 there is something about the unknown;

both captivating & terrifying ,

wildly unexplainable

but completely imaginable

i want this.

i want those feelings of fear

and faith

in their equal parts–

intensified

england

 i want to experience every new feeling here

i want to taste each new season here

i want to fall in love with the cobbled streets

i want to be warmed up by the afternoon rush

i want to walk through the winter markets

and drink hot cocoa

and hold hands with friends; old and new.

i want to see england like i never have before.

i want to fall in love here.