its been a while, but here's a little recap on what January has felt like so far.
so far, January hurts. it feels like i am being stretched backwards, to be launched forward.
and for the first few days i thought i would never make it through. i believed God had let me down and let me go.
i know this is not truth.
truth is:
it hurts, but it is necessary. and truth says, that my circumstances do not tell of God's goodness to me.
I learned at church yesterday that when walking through hard seasons, we believe one of three things. We either believe that God is all good, but not all powerful, that He is all powerful but not all good, OR that He is both good and all powerful.
i want to believe the third.
because the fact that i do not see God's hand the way that i want to, does not mean He is any less good or any less powerful.
i am learning in this season that:
it is imperative that i do not give up.
it is imperative that i keep my eyes fixed on the One.
it is imperative that i chase Truth.
it is imperative that i am rooted.
it is imperative that i am not isolated.
it is imperative that i am vulnerable with my pain.
it is imperative that i stand firm.
hard seasons are a just that. hard. and i wish i knew why they are so necessary to go through, i wish i had some kind of encouragement or hope to give but all i know is God's position of love towards me never. ever. changes. and while i may not understand what He allows, i can still find joy and strength and hope because He is a sure foundation.
so if all i know to be true of God right now is that He is all good, and all powerful, then that's enough for me.
